Confessions

As I sit here in front of my computer eating some leftover noodles that I nuked and threw some cheese on I have a confession...I love what I affectionately call "blog stalking." Karyl is on the floor in the office here asleep and Freddie is in the Living Room asleep in the invaluable bouncy/vibrating chair that I just realized he was finally big enough for today...and here I sit, stalking anyone and everyone I might have known at one point in life via their blogs.

I have realized that you can find just about anyone's blog if you look at the blog lists on the side of the page of blogs you normally visit. I have looked at blogs of people I knew from our old ward to find out who is pregnant, who has sick kids...etc. I have found the blogs of people that never liked me and I never really liked them...and you're asking "why would you bother looking for those?" Well, I would bother because it gives me a twisted sense of self-confidence knowing that some people will either never grow up or that they really haven't done anything with their lives. Now I know some of you are thinking "Diana!! That doesn't sound anything like you!" and you're partially right, I normally wouldn't say anything like that but I have realized as I've gotten "older" that I really have accomplished a lot more than I ever could have imagined at this point in my life and sometimes I forget because what I've accomplished isn't what I had planned for myself when I graduated. I personally think I've done better than I ever could have imagined, but sometimes I forget that when I see friends who have great jobs like I used to have, or friends that are doing things I always wanted to. But, sometimes while that all looks good on the outside you (I have to) remind yourself that those people don't know what it feels like to have an amazingly wonderful spouse, or to have children that adore you.

I have realized that I have what so many people are dying to have. I have an amazing husband who is the best looking man I have ever seen and who truly is Superman...I have beautiful children who are so well-behaved that I can't help but think that Greg and I must have been good people in the pre-mortal life because I don't deserve it! We have a beautiful home that is ours and is perfect for our little family and we have found some amazing new friends here that we will hopefully keep in touch with for years to come.

I think I've done pretty well...I may not have a great paying job anymore, and I may not drive a cute sports car or party until I'm purple...but I have a job that pays me in more hugs and kisses and high fives than I can stand sometimes, and I drive a practical but very fun minivan that allows me to shop at Costco easily and change diapers inside the car!! And I still party, but it's not at a nightclub...it's in my house dancing with my daughter, and with my husband watching TV late at night.

I wouldn't trade a millisecond of my life now for what I wanted when I was 18...and I can say that I honestly think I've acheived more in the past 8 years than most people will in their entire life!! I love my LIFE!!!